11 posts from March 2009

I love that I've found a series that I like to read. I've missed reading. The escape from my reality is fantastic - it's becoming a bit too much with graduation creeping up on me. IDK what I'm going to do when I'm done with this series. I guess I'm going to have to commit to actually reading the books on my to-read list on Goodreads.com.

1. Marked - House of Night Book 1 - P.C. Cast
2. Betrayed - House of Night Book 2 - P.C. Cast
3. Chosen - House of Night Book 3 - P.C. Cast
4. Untamed - House of Night Book 4 - P.C. Cast
5. My Secret: A PostSecret Book - Frank Warren
6. The Secret Lives of Men and Women: A PostSecret Book - Frank Warren
7. PostSecret: Extraordinary Confessions from Ordinary Lives - Frank Warren
8. A Lifetime of Secrets: A PostSecret Book - Frank Warren
9. Stargirl – Jerry Spinelli
10. Love, Stargirl – Jerry Spinelli
11. About a Boy – Nick Hornby
12. Goddess of the Night – Daughter’s of the Moon Book 1 – Lynne Ewing
13. Into the Cold Fire – Daughter’s of the Moon Book 2 – Lynne Ewing
14. Nightshade – Daughter’s of the Moon Book 3 – Lynne Ewing
15. The Secret Scroll - Daughters of the Moon Book 4 - Lynne Ewing
16. The Sacrifice - Daughters of the Moon Book 5 - Lynne Ewing
17. The Lost One - Daughters of the Moon Book 6 - Lynne Ewing
18. I was a Teenage Fairy - Francesca Lia Block

I'm beside myself about picking up the next couple books in the series that I've been reading. I *highly* recommend it to those who like YA Fiction. They're fast reads and the story is super captivating.

In the last couple days I've added to my goal of reading 150 books by the end of the year. I started the Daughter's of the Moon series. It's freaking.awesome. I'm trying to hunt down the fourth book so I can keep going with it. In the meantime I've started another book that Paige lent me.

When I came home last night I saw that Padre left my mail out for me. Sitting on top was that lovely envelope, letting you know before you even open it, that tells you the time has come to "perform your civic duty."

This is the fourth time since I've turned 18 that I have received this envelope. The past three times I've been called as an alternate. This time, however, I'm being called as a legit potential juror. I'm excited, only because that means I won't be receiving this envelope for another three years.

Secretly, I'm also hoping that I'm called for something that Mike has done and I can be like 'Uhm, I almost married that scumbag.' Yeah. I'm pretty sure I need help. Haha.

1: continuous and careful thought <after long consideration he agreed to their requests>
2 a: a matter weighed or taken into account when formulating an opinion or plan <economic considerations forced her to leave college>

b: a taking into account

I need to go on Millionaire Matchmaker.

Side note: Have you ever wondered why there's so many sports metaphors for life?

How do you deal when you find someone you mesh with so well but neither of you are capable of being in a healthy relationship together at this point in time? It kind of sucks. But at the same time it's nice to know that there's someone out there who really does like me and maybe some day it'll all work out.

Being home for break this year is weird. I'm not really on a break because I'm going up to my internship Monday, Wednesday and Friday but I do have a break from living at school which is really what I need. I'm in a better place than I was earlier this week - surprisingly because of Padre. We talked about what was bothering me and he was really responsive in a way that I didn't think he would be able to be. I feel better about a lot of the stuff that was bothering me and where I left my relationship with my mother.

I'm feeling good. I'm feeling great. I'm feeling wonderful.

What's a little thing you do every day that brightens the lives of those around you?
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I wake up. My mere existence brightens the day of those around me!

That people find my personal life so fucking interesting to blog about. I didn't think I was that big of a deal. Apparently I am.

Taken straight from some cow's blog:
Rant: How is it fair, that Angela, who knowlingly got involved with Dan (in the sense that he got around sexually and was, at the time, cheating on someone with her)gets an apology for his actions?

It's pretty fair that I received an apology because I did nothing wrong through the entire course of our "relationship," that I call a whatever. I didn't break into his room. I didn't violate his trust. I wasn't his RA or the ARA of his building. And I didn't pull this kind of bullshit. Having expectations doesn't equate to what this cow did to him, therefore it's very fair that I received an apology.

And, if what i am reading is true, he apologized to her after she made a scene and stormed out of his presence. And apparantly him leaving it on IM when she had an away up wasn't good enough. And not only can I not believe that he apologized *because he admits he fucked up* but I can't believe she got mad.

I will never get an apology from him. I should have known, but I didn't know what he would be like. It's not fair. It's not right, and I can't believe that she is bitching about it and looking for sympathy.

Actually, you stupid Cow, I haven't talked to him in a month. And what I do in my dorm not in your presence is none of your business. How I conduct myself in my personal life - not your business. The fact that you think you have the right to pick apart a situation that has nothing to do with you is one of the most self-centered actions by you I have ever had the privilege of witnessing. He apologized to me a month after all of this bullshit went down. A MONTH.

And I can be upset about the fact that he IMed me on AIM without having you pick that apart, too. Because I'm allowed to be upset. How dare you tell me that I'm wrong for experiencing any sort of emotion toward a situation you can't even begin to understand because you don't fucking listen and you try to read more into things than what's really there.

You're right Cow, you will never get an apology from him. You don't deserve one. And for the record, I never asked for one. I didn't want an apology. I don't want anything to do with him. And the fact that I have to defend this to you is absurd. I'm not looking for sympathy. I could care less if anyone chooses to give me sympathy. And suggesting that I knew what he was like when he treated me significantly different than you, you fucking daft twit, and one or two other girls I knew about gave me the impression that this was different. So shame on me for being fooled but shame on you for even beginning to think that this is a battle you can fight in the area in blog-land.

Take the blog down. Or I'll have it taken down for you. You have the rest of the day.

An untruthful statement about a person, published in writing or through broadcast media, that injures the person's reputation or standing in the community. Because libel is a tort (a civil wrong), the injured person can bring a lawsuit against the person who made the false statement. Libel is a form of defamation , as is slander (an untruthful statement that is spoken, but not published in writing or broadcast through the media).

I wasn't lying. Take it down or I will make sure it is. And I will investigate pressing charges.

How do you even begin to think it's kosher to apologize to someone and then tell them they hurt your feelings? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! To show you what I'm talking about:
Some Scummy Boy: i know we havent talked in a while
 but damnit
im sorry
i fucked this up
and i just want to say im sorry
to see u storm out of the building when im working
 that hurts
 and u have all the right to be angry
i just wanted to tell you
that im sorry
well i guess ill leave u alone

I'm glad that in this apology I've received permission to be angry and been told that I've hurt his feelings. To think he actually cares that I hurt his feelings by storming out of the building after the bullshit he put me through is one of the most selfish things ever. I'm also glad that I received this message two hours after I put up an away message stating that I was out. Maybe I'd believe he was sorry if he made an effort to directly talk to me, like face to face with real words and sentences, opposed to doing it over AIM or texting. I don't feel like that's a lot to ask. Considering he didn't know my fucking last name after all of that. HOW ARE YOU THAT SELF ABSORBED?!

Is it just me or when you apologize to someone do you specifically mention what you're sorry for or does saying you fucked up cover it? Can that really cover six months of fucking up?

I wish I hadn't left bed this morning. I was so happy until I looked at my away message.

Flip Side.

I went on a date last night. I had a fantastic time. He's pretty much awesome. I'm smitten. We're going out again Friday.