People
I understand that when you're in a relationship with someone you want to spend as much time with that person as possible - even if you live with them. What pisses me off is when you stop following through on commitments with other people because of that person but you continue to tell me that you miss me and we need to hang out and that you'll call me. Stop lying. If that was the case you would've texted/called/IMed me to hang out by now; and I mean since the last time you did because you didn't follow through on that either.
I'm really sick of everyone being *too* busy for me. If you can fit in time for your shitty boyfriend, that's right I went there, then you can fit in time for me. If you can manage to go out to eat with your other friends or go out for drinks with them why the hell can't you do that with me? Are you just trying to break up with me and not tell me? Because if you are that's fucking shady as hell.
I'm sick of people telling me that we're "biffles" when in actuality we're just really close at the moment and have a lot in common. In all honesty this isn't directed solely at one person - although it appears that way when you read it. I'm just making generalized statements that seem to apply significantly to one person. It's frustrating to find out that people don't fit into your life the way you want them to or even the way you thought they did.
Part of me isn't surprised that this happened. It's a continuous cycle for me. I surround myself with flakes. And even though I continuously lower my expectations for people and their ability to follow through on commitments I'm continuously let down. I know that this is part of the process of growing up and it'll keep happening throughout my life - I'll become close with people and then we'll part ways when their purpose in my life has been fulfilled but it doesn't make the process any less frustrating. A lot of it has to do with the fact that when the boyfriend/job/distraction is gone that person will text/IM/call me and be like "OMG I haven't seen you in forever let's hang out!" and then the cycle will start all over when some new distraction comes along.
I know that I'm guilty of this and this is what happened with me and my friends on The Cape when I was dating Mike, but there were also extinuating circumstances in that situation like the fact that I was only able to see him on the weekends and we were engaged; however foolish and silly it may be we/I/whatever had the full intention of using the marriage license and following through with the marriage.
Maybe I just need to realize that everyone isn't as considerate of other people as I am and just move on?
Is it time to go back to school yet?
**UPDATED**
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